Monday, May 02, 2005
i guess yesterday was alright. wait who am i kidding? i didnt really enjoy myself. was supposed to go to sentosa and have fun some fun. the j ones were there. theyre not bad actually. but still somehow i just had no mood to swim or play soccer or anything. i really had no mood for anything actually. so i guess i was a little bored. sorry. but that wasnt it. nope. later on in the evening an old friend of mine who i used to spend quite a lot of time with popped up with her good friends. that just spoilt my mood. but i guess it doesnt matter. friends come and go. only the really good ones stay. so i desperately wanted to leave sentosa. i dont intend on going there again till its fully developed or something. wadi shares the same sentiments. wadi and i had to wait in line for about half an hour before we boarded a bus to the departure centre to take another bus to mainland. all thanks to the fing tour groups who kept trying to cut the queue. so eventually when wadi and i reached the departure centre we just decided to walk to harbourfront hoping to avoid a similar situation. we failed in finding a royal sporting house at harbourfront centre so we just headed to the control station. pissed frustrated and tired we sat down and talked about life while we waited for the rest to come. its really depressing actually. i booked out on saturday my sundays wasted and i have to book in on monday. the worst part is i wont be able to book out again for two weeks all thanks to my field camp. so it was my last taste of freedom and i didnt enjoy it. then we talked about uni life. i didnt get accepted into aerospace engineering. whoopee! just what i need to brighten my already fucked up day. congrats to those who got in. im cursing at you guys from the inside but congrats anyway. i dont know if ill enjoy uni life. hell i havent been enjoying anything lately. not to mention ive been sick the whole week. the cookhouse food is just shit and i cant stomach it anymore. i dont know how im gonna live on combat rations for seven days straight. so i havent been eating well. no appetite. been puking and coughing a lot. so lets see. my future seems bleak, army life just bites ass, living here just bites ass, you can never really trust anyone cause theyll end up stabbing you in the back eventually and oh yes who could forget family problems. cant go wrong with that can we? sisters in hospital. im not even close to my siblings anymore. my dads been looking sick and tired a lot lately. shit. in the end i add everything up and i truly feel that my life is pointless.so i shall just embrace that fact and be the bastard i normally am. woohoo. boy im growing old. feels like im eighty already. so weak, absent minded, cranky and shit. thats probably why the womancant be bothered anymore. our contract supposed to end when were eighty. having a blast huh? aaaahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahaahahah. *cough* field camp here i come. dont bother to write or call or message or shit. i wont have my phone with me. but actually even if i do it wouldnt make much of a difference. everyones busy these days. oh wait the highlight of last night was swensens. thats all. i splurged on a really satisfying meal. fish and chips and sticky chewy chocolate. i would have gotten myself a milkshake but i didnt in the end and i dont know why. after swensens me jia wei wadi and emi just hung out at istana park. brings back memories. been some time since we just slacked like that at night talking shit. hope to do that again with the guys soon. oh wait the night before apit wadi and i were walking around compasspoint at night. got reminded of the new year celebration at the end of 2003 where we justlied down on the pavement. this shit means nothing to some people.haha. oh and happy birthday sarah! =) weird way to end a rant but what the hey. oh yea almost forgot happy belated birthday jess. nope didnt forget but this is the only time i got to get my hands on my bros comp. cant wait for 26 may.