i was reading some of her past entries which i saved on my comp awhile back. its hard not to tear especially after everything that has happened. words that actually bring back nice memories sting now more than ever. i guess the trick is to keep breathing.

"since i see less of my friends these days, i cant help it but love them more.esp my best friend."

spend all your time waiting for that second chance. for a break that would make it ok. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. i need some distraction. oh beautiful release. memories seep from my veins. let me be empty and weightless and maybe i'll find some peace tonight in the arms of the angel far away from here. from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear. you are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie. you're in the arms of the angel. may you find some comfort here. so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back and the storm keeps on twisting. you keep on building the lies that you make up for all that you lack. it don't make no difference escaping one last time. it's easier to believe in this sweet madness. oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees. you're in the arms of the angel. may you find some comfort here.

for the angel whos always been there for me. thank you.

zeir @ 11:30 PM

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